Tripping: Chapter 1

This is Chapter 1 of a series, you can find chapters 2 and 3 on the timeline

The plan was simple, and cliched. The gang would meet every year and head for a trip. The gang, of course, was the bunch of stunted personalities who feature in most of my stories. I would have referred to us by our collective name except we had none. And it’s not as though we hadn’t tried either, we had. It’s just that even we had to admit that something like “The Musketeers” or “The Marauaders” would be pushing it, since there was so little we did in the way of musketeering and even lesser in the way of marauding. Having said that, our self respect would still not allow us to be called the “The Kota Hang - Outers Group 2004-2006”. So we remained nameless, torn forever between pride and practicality. But yes, that was the plan in a nutshell, that despite us having been strewn into different engineering colleges across the country, we would congregate at the end of every academic year and head for a trip together to any of India’s numerous worthy holiday destinations.

The plan had its roots in the success of our first escapade. Right after the end of our engineering entrance exams, Munnu, Satpal, Anvesh and I landed ourselves in Goa. It was our first trip together to Goa, actually our first together to anywhere but Kota. Over the next seven days, in that quintessential boys to men trip, we got introduced to most of what would be the fundamental focus of our lives over the next few years. Booze, gambling, women (or the desire for women, if you want to be excruciatingly accurate), we saw it all. But most importantly, for the awkward nineteen year olds that we were, we got our first taste of real freedom. That legendary trip ensured that we would to try to replicate it over the next many years, and so the plan took birth.

By the second year, however, I as the de - facto planner for these trips began to realise how painful it could be to get a few jobless sophomores in one place at the same time. The obstacles were endless and the variables infinite. Satpal, for instance, had a curious kind of problem. No matter what time of the year we planned out the trip, he always claimed it was very likely that his sister would be in Kanpur just then, and hence there was no way he could commit to a trip earlier than a couple of days before it actually happened. This may even have been fine, if it wasn’t for the fact his stinginess was the stuff of legend. (I’m not exaggerating, for instance, we all know that on all 'boys to men' trips, everyone hires bikes, or at least cars. We on the other hand, thanks to Satpal’s perpetual cost cutting, had to go everywhere in Goa State Transport buses. As you can imagine, our pissoff was unimaginable.) So whenever it was just a couple of days to the proposed trip and we hadn’t made any bookings thanks to Satpal’s sister issues, he would realise that the ticket and hotel prices had gotten ‘way too high’ and we wouldn't end up going at all.

Sarthak had other issues. While he was fundamentally eager to go on the trip, he was forever dragged down by his tendencies. His tendency to say 'no' was prime among these. Yes, Sarthak had a problem uncommon to most men, which was that his default response to virtually everything was ‘no’. Once he’d said 'no', of course, it would take forever to convince him that he wanted to do exactly what he was so profusely arguing against.

Munnu’s situation was graver. Somehow his university had decided to schedule its semesters and examinations entirely at odds with all other university calendars in the country, making it difficult to schedule anything at a convenient time for him. In fact, in the third version of the trip, Munnu actually came along with us in the few days of study leave between two exams.

Finally, Anvesh also tended to provide some resistance. Being a hardcore Gujju, he’d seen practically the whole world as part of large Patel Travels group tours and his perpetual complaint was that he’d already been to whatever place we were considering.

In short, everyone seemed to have some ridiculous problem with either time or place. Now I’m not telling you all this to justify why I chose Daman as the location for our second trip. I’m not, seriously, you have to believe me. I’m not even denying that I may have briefly thought that Daman was a virgin beach paradise, superior to Goa in natural beauty and inferior to it in night life, but only just. I’m not denying that I thought that. Come on, haven’t I admitted that a dozen times already? I may also have had no clue that Daman was just a haven for poor souls from Gujarat, who couldn’t drink publicly in their own state, to get sloshed. I may have not known that. Yes, despite all my detailed online research, I may still not have known that Daman was just an overly large and incredibly cheap bar. It is possible that I didn't know that. Although it’s been so long now that I barely remember. Look look, I’m just saying that when you’ve had so much trouble finding the right place and time, and an opportunity opens up which could work for everyone, you’ve got to grab it straight up. That’s all I’m saying, you’re with me on this one right?

So, we decided to go to Daman. For six days. The first group of people in all history to spend six entire days in Daman. But we didn’t know that.

We reached Vapi station early in the morning. The train ride was a long discourse about how Indian Railways had done great work in the Mumbai - Ahmedabad belt and how our journey would have taken so much longer just a few years earlier. All this courtesy Sarthak, who was a certified member of the little known and easily forgotten Indian Railways Fan Club. Satpal was the only one really enthused by any of this, and he cut in every now and then with a “Haan yaar, the tickets were also damn cheap”.

Outside the railway station, Munnu and Satpal took charge of how we would get to the hotel. Yes, Munnu, who made it a point to bargain everywhere, but especially at places with fixed prices, like prepaid taxi counters. And yes, Satpal who, as I mentioned earlier, let slip no opportunity to protect his family's vast, almost royal wealth. With the two of them leading the effort to achieve transportation, we should have expected what happened next. 

Thirty minutes later, a dilapidated white ambassador appeared from somewhere. The kind of model that you'd only have seen in 40's movies. If it wasn't covered in mud and if it hadn't been falling apart at the ends, I'm sure some poor fool would have called it 'vintage'. With a total capacity of five, Satpal and Munnu had estimated that it would suffice for the six of us, plus the driver of course. Despite all this, I was relieved to see the cab. Don’t get me wrong, I knew it was definitely going to be cramped. There was also a good chance we’d end up dead in one of those ‘Overloaded car loses control on NH - 7. Five dead, one critical, one missing’ type of stories. But all in all it beat the hell out of having to travel in a state transport bus. For one, it didn’t involve having to avoid pan spittle from the conductor’s mouth. It didn't involve having to listen to loud, live folk music that you would be compelled to pay for later. It didn't even involve having to push back the gag reflex aroused by a distinct scent of urine from somewhere under your seat. But most importantly, it sure as hell didn’t involve trying to keep enthusiastic eunuchs on the next seat from grabbing your privates. 

And so we set off ..

To be continued...

Placement Saga

The broadband connection in the house was screwed, as usual. Like most things from Reliance, it was available at a ridiculously low fixed rate per month. Also like most things from Reliance, it probably cost you more in blood pressure, hypertension and heart disease treatment in the medium to long term.

Anyway, after yelling out the usual few rounds of "Fuck Reliance! Fuck all your mass market products! Fuck!...", to no one in particular, I picked up the router and threw it around in disgust. Then, also as usual, I spent the next thirty minutes trying to figure out if the connection was cold because the Ambanis were swindling me or because I'd wrecked the router. Soon though, I realised that this time around I actually needed the internet for more than just checking my Facebook account. I needed it to apply to jobs as and when they opened up on the IIT Bombay placement website. To make matters worse, the placement cell had some sort of strange blitzkrieg policy going where they would open up an application for maybe five, six hours and then close it again. Nuts, if you ask me, but that's how it was. To put it simply, if you didn't, by some chance, log on to the placement website within that five six hour window, then your chances with a particular company could be lost completely. Once again, nuts right?

So I had to make sure I was updated at least every couple of hours. I couldn't count on friends either, no one could count on friends during placements. The competition was intense, cut throat and dirty (ok maybe that's completely untrue, but then most of friends already had jobs by this time and were so busy getting sloshed that they genuinely couldn't be counted on). Instead I decided I'd give my password to my Dad and he could check it regularly from the office or on his phone or through his secretary. Needless to say, my Dad (along with all of family, right up to my cousins thrice removed) was incredibly anxious that their boy (me), who'd been valiantly interviewing for jobs since day one of the placement season, get one at the earliest. My grandparents couldn't sleep, my Mom walked around the house looking visibly worried and my Dad kept saying "Arey theek hai yaar (Chill, it's no biggie)", for no apparent reason. As you can imagine, all this put great pressure on me to feel worried or at the very least, to act worried. So I tried my best to seem like part of the mourning. I relegated myself to the confines of my room where I was supposedly scouring the internet for opportunities and networking with contacts. Truth is, I did send out a few (unanswered) emails here and there, but for the most part I respectfully closed Facebook whenever my Mom popped in to make sure I was well fed and cheerful. In the evenings, I would step out to "discuss strategies with Sud". Somehow most of these discussions tended to meander from the course we had charted out in our parents' minds. In addition to (or instead of) talking 'strategy', we may have spent entire evenings laughing about how Sud had blown his chances even with Esha. This may even have happened with Sud getting progressively drunker and drunker till the point where even he thought this was hilarious and started pulling jokes on himself. But nothing was better than the fact that Esha would usually be around laughing along with everyone about how he blew it even with her.

Alright, getting back to that password I gave my Dad. I was asleep when he called me. Yes, asleep in the middle of the day – a privilege of the unemployed. I picked up the call in something of a daze.

"A new offer has opened up, BPCL", he said.

"BPCL? Isn't that a PSU?"

"Arey what's wrong with the public sector. Besides it's not the average sarkaari place, I know some guys there. You remember Hemant Sahi, your friend from Noida? His Dad worked there for many years before Reliance, remember? It's a great position too, management trainee, then regional manager in a couple of years..."

(Gentle snoring)

"Hello? Hello, are you there?"

"Yeah.....yeah yeah I'm awake, I'm completely awake, I was just thinking about what you said... yeah...."

"Ok, I was saying it's a great position, you'll be have six hundred guys working under you in a year's time. They're even paying 8.5"

(Gentle snoring)

"Hello? Hello?"

"......Yeah yeah, just thinking, just doing some thinking....."

"Yeah they're paying 8.5, I'll sign you up then..."

(More gentle snoring)

"Ok cool I'm signing you up"

.....

I forgot all about this conversation till a few days later when someone called me saying I'd been shortlisted for BPCL.

BPCL?

What?

No there must be some mistake, I never applied, never signed. I didn’t even see the…….Oh….

NO! No no, no no, there’s no way I could work there, no way. I’ll become a Babu if I work there, nope no chance. I can’t, just can’t. My career will be ruined, I have big plans, what the…!

One might ask how it really mattered if I was shortlisted. I could always choose not to show up for the interviews, right? Or I could show up and make a complete ass of myself and get rejected, right? Or even if I did land a job I could still apply elsewhere right?

Not really, no. The institute had all kinds of rules against that kind of thing, all of which were premised on two somewhat fair ideas. Firstly, ‘if you didn’t want to join then you shouldn’t have applied’ and secondly, ‘once you have a job, you can no longer apply for more jobs’.

So if I didn’t show up after being shortlisted, there was a chance I would get reported to the placement cell. If I turned up and made an obvious ass of myself, I could get reported to the placement cell. If I showed up and told them that there was no way I would join them, I could still get reported. So what if I got reported? Well, being IIT Bombay, they had some devised some particularly harsh penalties for the reported and I was sure they would take great pride in executing them too. Things like not being allowed for the next few companies in line, or being thrown out of the placement system for a month, or you know, something of the sort.

Yeah, I didn’t want to get reported.

So I had to do what anyone in my position would have had to: convince the company that they didn’t want me. Given the significantly large number of companies that had already rejected me, I figured this would be a fairly simple task, certainly a lot simpler than getting them to accept me.

And so I went to the interview only slightly worried, thinking I had my bases covered and that within a small period of time, I would return successful with a simple “We’ll keep your resume on record if we’re hiring again in the future”. I had prepared well to not get this job. I’d made sure I didn’t put on a suit, not even a tie. Presentability was usually a plus, we couldn’t have that. I made sure my black leather shoes weren’t really black, but a dusty shade of grey. My trousers a little ill-fitting, my shirt not very new and to add that final touch, I carried my resume in a sickly little file, as opposed to a nice folder.

Like I said before, subtlety was everything. It was prudent to come off as a doof, but dangerous to seem like a prick. The trouble with pricks is, they piss people off enough for those people to look deeper. And when they look deeper, of course, there’s always the risk that they’ll discover that the prickiness was just an act. Doofs on the other hand, have that remarkable property of boring the hell out of everyone. There comes a time in any interview with a doof when the interviewer does some serious thinking about what in the world he’s doing there. At this point, nine times out of ten, the interviewer will end the interview and his own suffering quickly and the doof will be out of contention. One the rare occasion, one time out of ten, the interviewer will end the suffering and just give the doof the job. I was playing on that, on the higher odds – nine times out of ten. Which is why no suit was good but no clothes was risky. Dusty grey shoes was a good idea but bright green slippers wasn’t.

Or so I thought.

Things changed quickly when I reached the venue. I looked around me when I got there, curious to see who the aspirants were and if there were any others who were faced with the same strange situation that I was. At first, it was difficult finding anyone I knew. I mean I recognized the faces around me, but couldn’t put names on too many of them. Faces I’d noticed in the peripheries of classrooms and the shadowy corners of laboratories in the previous four years. People who despite being in the same batch, same courses, same hostel even, were completely unknown to me. People who, in short, I’d never bothered to mingle with.

Anyway, after a little while I began to notice the same vein in many of the conversations around me and it began to give me my first shivers. All the guys there, or at least all those I could hear, didn’t want this job! They were all people who had applied blindly to whatever applications were opening up and by the time they realized what they’d gotten into, it was too late to back out (Once that five, six hour window was past, one couldn’t withdraw one’s application to a company either. For the third time, nuts right?).

Like I said, things changed quickly when I got there. I entered thinking I simply had to let any of the far more worthy candidates waltz through and take the job. Within ten minutes, however, I realized I was trying to lose to people who I had a definite edge over for a job that even they didn’t want. The tables had turned quite completely. In the dark corridors of the metallurgy department, I suddenly seemed like the most able, most qualified, most presentable candidate. For all my subtlety, I realized no one was wearing a suit or a tie. Most shirts too, looked older and dirtier than mine. Compared to the others’, even my shoes were examples of diligent polishing. I actually even spotted a couple of guys in green slippers. Hell, even my tardy CPI of 7.2 was among the highest of the lot.

I was doomed.

I knew right then that it would take something spectacular to get out of this one. It was one thing to fudge the group discussion or the interview but when most of the competition also intended to be mute, my guess was the resumes would become a strong deciding factor.

Hence I was doomed.

Drenched in cold sweat, heart pounding, I was a wreck. In the middle of all this, I wish I hadn’t heard this conversation happening a few feet away:

“You know what happened with Lovely Professional University last time right?”

“What?”

“They screwed my wing senior pretty bad.”

“Yeah? How?”

“Well he didn’t really want to join them, so when the Lovely Professional guys asked him at the end of his interview if he’d actually join…..”

“What’d he say?”

“Well he said “no”, of course, quite honestly.”

“Ok, and then…”

“Well they selected him anyway. Just to fuck with him, the spiteful bastards…he wouldn’t join them, so they killed his chances elsewhere as well….”

“Holy….”

“Yeah, screwed him over properly, they did. He lives in Bhatinda now, teaching numbskulls like us, only younger”

“Shit….Bhatinda….”

After hearing this “lovely” story, I quite gave up and resigned myself to the future. Visions of fat, bald, paunchy men who commanded six hundred others like themselves swam through my mind as I waited for the process to begin. Soon we all started moving towards a room where the BPCL people apparently were, about thirty of us in all. Without meaning to be, I was at the head of this group. We got there to find someone, a lady, standing with her back towards us. She was dressed differently from what I would have imagined. Open short grey hair, denim jeans, shorn at the ankles, a sweatshirt and waist pouch, the behind of which was visible; she looked nothing like an interviewer. She turned around when she sensed there were people behind her. She had big glass rimmed spectacles and through the lenses one could see that her eyes were completely out of focus. She stared around for a bit, seemingly unable to fix her eyes on anything. Then with one sweep, she yanked her head into a position pointing straight at me. Her eyes too, suddenly found focus and were now fixated directly at my forehead. She looked distinctly deranged, and dangerous in a way that only a deranged person can be.

Before we could react, she shrieked out in a high pitched yell, “You can’t come here like this, you can’t come here. You can’t come here……..if you come here, then you can’t go.”

Already on edge with the prospect of working for BPCL, her words rang out in that dark corridor like a deep evil portent. It was just that tiny catalyst that was needed to push all of us over the edge.

I’ve seen many scrambles and scuffles in my time but none like this one. Not a moment had passed since she’d uttered her ominous words than we were all already running. Running as fast as we could in that mass of thirty. One on top of the other, scrambling to get away, scuffling to get ahead, pushing, shoving but all the while moving away from her.

We ran for a long while, till we realized we’d probably been spooked by some crazy old lady who’d wandered into the metallurgy department. Or at least that’s what the others felt. To me, the appearance of a crazy old witchlike lady was a sign, a clear sign of the calamity to follow. Not just a sign, an omen. I walked back stoically to the metallurgy building, knowing fully what awaited me and that I could do nothing about it.

Soon the actual BPCL people showed up. They were only about three hours late, which was quite early by PSU standards, I’m sure. The lady who was giving the briefing droned on for almost an hour. I saw the stack of resumes she was carrying, and noticed mine right on top. Of course, sorted according to who they wanted most. But never mind, I’d already come to terms with. It probably made sense just to bow down gracefully.

After telling us about the five hundred different allowances that made up our Rs. 8.5 lakh annual compensation, she started talking about the various safety norms in the oil industry. At some point she told us about a guy who’d met his end at an oil field near Mumbai. Apparently, a great deal of oil managed to spill itself on top of this fellow and then caught fire. In his panic he jumped off the rig and into the water, hoping the water would douse the flames. But of course the oil continued to burn irrespective. Later the coroner reported that the cause of death was drowning and not burning.

For some reason the other candidates in the room thought this was hilarious and couldn’t stop laughing. The BPCL lady looked around a little stunned but continued as best she could. She went on to tell us about how all candidates should meet various fitness criteria etc etc.

“We only hire people above 5’5”, with no history of chronic ailments and if you wear glasses then your power should be 3 at max”

Hold on a second, what was that? Glasses with a power of no more than 3?

I paused for a bit, allowing her to move on to other mundane safety issues. Then I paused some more and wept a little. Then I remembered that this was a moment of glory and that it was my duty to make such moments momentous. I got up, gathered my things, and walked to the front of the room. I interrupted her between sentences and began to make it momentous.

“Err…excuse me…,” I cut in.

“Yes?”

“What did you say about the glasses again?”

“Umm, you shouldn’t be using anything higher than power 3 lenses”

“But I use a 3.25 ….and your form said nothing of the sort and..,” I protested.

“Yeah I know, we’re sorry. Actually the guy who…”

“No but you guys should have mentioned this earlier, I got my hopes up unnecessarily”, I said.

“I’m sorry, the oil industry’s safety norms are something we’re helpless against.”

“So there’s no chance then?” I asked with a completely straight face.

“Afraid not”, she said. She seemed genuinely sorry.

I considered rubbing it in a little further with a “Not even a desk job somewhere, something that doesn’t involve oil safety?” but then decided against it. Asking her that would mean being a prick. And like I said before, being a prick was dangerous, because then she may go to her superiors and ask them if I could, in fact, apply to a desk job somewhere. So I let it pass and walked out a man again.

At some point later, Sud called me to ask what had happened.

“You got out of that BPCL thing right?”

“Yeah man, no biggie.”

“Cool, how’d you land into that kind of trouble in the first place?”

“How else dude, fuckin Reliance…….just fuckin Reliance…”

Looking back, what’s funniest is that for a guy who had no job (and didn’t get one for another sixty days of placements), I was pretty desperate to not get this one. That winter I often imagined coming back to as a recruiter some day. Last Sunday I got that opportunity, just a year after my own placement season. I even interviewed some of the applicants and saw them go through the same trauma that I and so many others have been subject to over the years. Apply today, interview tomorrow. If you make it – drink like a fish, if not – apply again.

Sons of the Soil

If you've read any of my earlier posts, you'll know that I debate often. Having said that, I can safely say that from a logical, legal, constitutional or even moral standpoint, the "Sons of the Soil" debate as it exists in Maharashtra is pretty one-sided, at best. But I also know that for the people involved on either side of such movements, the matter is not one that lies in the rationality of the mind, but in the passion of the heart.

Not really being affected by the movement myself, my views on it were rather academic for a long time. One late Friday evening however, I got a closer look at one of those more directly affected by it.

"Your meter's not working." I told him soon after we'd left. Gauging by his reaction, this wasn't the first time this had happened.

"Oh it's gone off again, tch tch. Never mind, I'll restart it, that should set it straight."

"No thanks, I'd rather not travel in a rick with a faulty meter. Drop me at the gate, I'll pay you minimum till there" was my response.

"Arey nahin nahin. I'll take you sir, I will, just pay me whatever you see fit. Whatever your marzi is" he replied, reluctant to let go of a long distance customer.

"No, you'll create a fuss about it when we get there, I'd much rather avoid that, just drop me at the gate please."

"Theek hai sahib, but you can pay me whatever you want, seriously. The thing is I'm going that way myself, so if you don't come with me, there'll be an empty rickshaw travelling that way sir, where's the sense in that" he said, hardselling his ride. His eagerness was understandable. Since his meter was off key, he was unlikely to find anyone to ride in his rickshaw . He didn't want to let go of the one possible customer.

"Ok, I'll pay you a hundred and ten" I told him, rationalising that it was difficult enough to find autos headed that far and that it was silly to let go of this one.

"Sir, bas ek sau das? (Just a hundred and ten?) It's really far sir, hundred and ten won't even make my fuel cost." he argued.

"What? I travel this route everyday and it rarely goes over hundred-hundred and five. I'm paying you on the higher side. Besides, didn't you just say any rate would be good with you? Screw it, this is exactly the kind of fuss I didn't want to get into, drop me at the gate."

"No no sir, no, I'll take you, don't worry about it. Whatever rate you say is fine."

There was a moment's silence before he started again.

"But don't you think hundred and ten is a bit low sir?"

"Drop me at the gate!" I replied, determined to end this.

"No no sir, it's ok, relax. Aap toh naraaz ho gaye (You're getting angry unnecessarily)" he said with a twinkle.

The ride was long and potentially boring. Thankfully, he started to make conversation. He was chatty too, as you might have gauged by now. He told me plenty about himself soon enough.

His name was Shiva. Not his real name, his real name was longer and much more tedious. He was called Shiva by his friends because of his devotion to Lord Shiva. Hailing from U.P., he was a proper bhaiyya and made no attempt to hide it. Said he couldn't even if he wanted to.

To quote him verbatim, "Bhaiyyon ko toh koi bhi pehchan sakta hai sir, ismein kya chhupaein (Anyone can recognise a bhaiyya sir, now what is the point in trying to hide it)"

Like so many other Bhaiyyas, he lived here without his family. His wife and younger brother were back in a village near Aligarh while he lived and earned for them here. Soon, however, I found out something I hadn't expected.

"Sir I want my brother and my wife to be educated. Which is why I'm here, so that they have enough money for their fees and sustenance. If my brother becomes padha likha, then he won't have to become a rickshaw-wala like me sir, and my wife can be a teacher......and then I can go back to farming in my village." That was his plan in a nutshell.

"Waise toh I'm also twelfth pass, but a twelfth pass in U.P. can't make enough money to educate his family sahib, you know that" he added as he deftly cut ahead of an SUV.

There was a little silence before he spoke again. "Saab, you're from itna badaa college, people who graduate from your college must be getting twenty thousand a month aaram sey right?"

I looked at the guy as he said this. I'd spoken to auto drivers before and I knew that those who owned their own rickshaws (the ones in white) made no more than Rs. 400 a day. Those who didn't (the ones wearing the brown uniforms, like Shiva) earned about half of that. And now this man who toiled about twelve hours a day for that kind of money was asking me a question. An uncomfortable question. He was asking me if people from my college started off by earning about twenty thousand a month for sitting in an air-conditioned office and crunching numbers. What could I say? I didn't have the heart to tell him the truth. I couldn't. I couldn't tell him that virtually everyone earned a lot more. No one, in fact settled for that less. What could I say? The unfairness of life was staring at me through the rear-view mirror of that rickshaw, with a questioning smile upon its face, waiting for my answer.

So I lied. "Yes," I told him, "they get twenty thousand."

He seemed satisfied. "When my brother makes it here, he'll also be just like you sahib. They'll pay him twenty thousand sahib, twenty thousand!"

He fell silent again, lost in thought it seemed. Then he pulled out his cellphone and looked at me, "Sir, can you speak to my brother for a minute. It will be really nice if someone who has been to college can give him some advice. If you don't mind sir, he will really like it."

Rather awkward about speaking to his brother so arbitrarily, yet recognising that he really wanted me to, I had a two minute conversation with Shiva's younger brother. Somewhat relieved when it was over, I handed the phone back to him and assured him that his kid brother would do well.

The ride was over soon after and he did ultimately convince me to pay him a little more than a hundred and ten. Thinking about it all later that night, I couldn't help but think there was something remarkably noble about what the man was doing. Living so far away from home and family, saving up every penny so he could educate them and give them a better future. A less than educated man who knew the value of education, even for women. Working day and night in the heat, dust and smoke to support his people.

In a city that becomes more and more about oneself and the selfish quest for personal luxuries, Shiva is different and his goals more noble. This gentle bear of a man, with his pants falling a little short of his heels and his brown shirt a little tight across the tummy, he goes about his business like a silent old-fashioned hero, stoic and determined. He works hard, puts his family before himself and prays for a better tomorrow. Is there more that constitutes a real man?

Sadly, it is people like Shiva who are being beaten up on the streets everyday and threatened with worse if they don't leave the city. I don't know if Shiva is crowding the city or if he's stealing jobs, or even if he should be allowed to. I do know, however, that his presence bathes the city in a gentle, more benevolent light. And for the life of me, I can't think of a single soil that would not be proud to have him as her son.

3:2 Debate Is Life, The Rest Is Just Prep-Time. Chapter 4, The End Of The Beginning

This is the final chapter in the series, scroll down to find earlier chapters

The morning crept up on us. Momentous mornings always seem to arrive before you expect them to.

Quarters.

Butterflies.

Adrenaline with a crazy gung-ho high.

Anticipation.

Nerves.

Three guys cheering for us, two of us in the team.

The next few hours went by in such a flurry that it in hindsight it seems unreasonable to think that so much happened in that span of time. The morning began when we all woke up to find Suddu completely dressed and ready to leave. When we told him that he was up and ready way too early for the debate, he informed us that he was going elsewhere.

Else where? This was the first time we’d broken, where the hell was he going? He wasn’t going to watch the debate? He wasn’t going to be there to cheer us on? Bastard! Too sleepy to say much, we bid him goodbye. While leaving he mumbled something to the effect of, “Oh comeon guys, I’m assuming you’ll win the quarters and I should be back in time for the semis comfortably, alright bye, see you at the semis.” Sure, he was assuming we would win the quarters. Like we won quarters everyday, like it was no big deal.

Later we got to know what prompted Sud to cook up such nonsense. He was going to meet a girl. Some girl he knew from his stint at LSE. Like I said earlier Sud’s experiences with the ladies have been terribly disappointing, to say the least. Which is why that morning when he realized that this girl wanted to meet him, he found himself in a deep moral dilemma. On the one hand he wanted to hang in there for his team, on the other hand was a woman. A woman. Suddu had been looking for a woman for many years now. So drastic had his desperation become that he saw a prospective partner in every female now, with little regard for quality, compatibility, age, anything at all. Suddu often exclaimed, with much self pity, “I’ve never even held a girl’s hand and I’m nearly twenty two!” Sud reflected on all this early that morning and it came rushing back to him in frightening detail. The choice was suddenly a simple one. He was going to meet the girl. Of course, he had to justify missing the debate, more to himself than anyone else. Suddu likes to do that, justify things to himself. So in his mind he envisioned Shobhit and me as Denny Krane and Alan Shore. The opposing team (ranked 1^st thus far), in his mind, became a couple of school kids who would be flattened easily by us and he would be back in time for the semi-final. All was good, life made sense and Sud skipped away happily.

A couple of hours later, the rest of us were at the debate as the motions were released. We met our opponents and after the mutual cancellations, we arrived at “Pornography is good for women on the whole” as our motion. Ironically we, the so-called desperate engineering guys, were opposition. Anyway, before you knew it, the twenty minutes of prep-time were over and we entered the tiny classroom.

They made their first speech and it was nothing like we expected it to be. Their case seemed to be modeled on the notion that pornography was protest against patriarchy and this protest made it a symbol of the liberation of women. The problem was, however, that they didn’t say so in so many words. They kept trying to sell the idea that porn was choice, porn was freedom, porn was occupation, porn meant equality. A little confused, I got up to make my speech. Controlled aggression, I told myself, controlled aggression.

I went sequentially, trying to take down every point made by them thus far. The response from the adjudicators seemed to be good. They were nodding at just the right times, noting down stuff at what I believed to be our stronger points, laughing along when I made a joke. Seven and a half minutes later, things seemed to be going well and I sat down again. The government responded next in their deputy’s speech. His seven minutes added, in my opinion, nothing to the debate at all. No new lines of attack, no new arguments, not even rebuttals of any value. With respect, it was a redundant speech. Smelling blood, Shobhit rose to give his speech. They were on the defensive. In most debates, this is the turning point, when one team has the distinct advantage and can go all out on the offensive. In the three member team format, I often give the whip’s speech and know exactly what it’s like to be in this position. Shobhit did exactly what he had to, he nailed in our points, cementing our edge. He had all the time in the world too, since there was nothing new from their end. The adjudicators were clearly on our side by the end of his speech. We were making the other team bleed now, dragging them by the neck. Cross questioning, which was our forte, hadn’t even begun and we were already in the driver’s seat. We could see them giving up too, their shoulders were sagging and their smiles had disappeared. Cross questioning went well too, we answered well and they were defensive all along. As far as I was concerned, their game was up. Anything they said in the closing could only be a perspective on what they had said during the debate, and we were confident all that was well covered.

There was a slight glitch just before our closing. Neither of us was prepared for it, each had assumed the other would be handling it. In truth we weren't used to delivering the closing so shortly after cross questioning since we had been government for most of the tournament, giving the second closing. Here we were opposition and the closing had just sort of crept up on us. Anyway, I made the closing and it went as well as it could have given the circumstances.

Then came the next glitch. The guy in the other team came up and delivered a fantastic closing. He introduced new matter disguising it subtly in the form of perspective and shifted focus from the meat of what the clash in the debate had been to certain seemingly irrelevant constructives mentioned in passing in their first speech. Most of all, he harped on how we hadn’t tackled the symbolism attached with pornography that they had spoken of. After his closing, I experienced my first chill. But we were still more than confident of victory and left the room to the adjudicators.

Outside, everyone who had witnessed the debate seemed to regard us clear winners. Pranay also expressed his confidence freely. We expected it be a quick and easy decision for the judges. Fifteen minutes later, none of the judges had left the room and we began to get just a little bit worried. Pranay’s views were now, “If they give it to the other team, it can only be because of that closing.” Thirty minutes in, things got pretty tense and we were all going through every bit of the debate in our heads to see where the difficulty in deciding who could have won may be arising. Finally after forty minutes, the judges were ready. As I walked into the room Pranay yelled out from behind us, “They can’t give it to you, the government made just the symbolism constructive and you didn’t answer it.” With that ominous message still in ringing in my ears, I entered the room behind Shobhit.

Suddenly the room was full of all kinds of weird things. Dogs, airline seats, headlights, brawling drunkards. Then just as soon, they disappeared and were replaced by five very quiet panelists. The head panelist, or chair, stood up and everyone went very quiet. He asked us to take our seats and we did. Not a sound was made as he cleared his throat.

“The decision is a 3-2 split” he said, and paused for effect. A long “ohhh” went around the room. Then he spoke again, slowly and deliberately, “The side receiving three votes is…..the government” That was that, we lost our first ever quarterfinal on a 3-2 split. One more vote and we would have made it, just one, but we didn't.

A section of the crowd broke out into cheer. Our opponents came over and shook hands, and our tournament ended there.

Meanwhile, in another part of town a young man was just about to meet a pretty brown eyed girl. She came from around the corner and walked towards the café where they were supposed to meet. He took one look at her and was floored. She was even more beautiful than when he had last seen her at LSE. As she walked towards him, he felt the same stirring that every young man has felt at least once. Oh the twinkle in her eye, the curls of her hair, oh the gentle delicacy of her gait. Heart pounding, beads of sweat forming on his forehead, he knew it was love. When she reached him, he blurted out, “You look….you look really great….”

“Really?” she replied with a smile that only worsened the fellow’s condition, “I do hope my boyfriend agrees with you, he’ll be joining us here soon….you don’t mind, do you?”

Flummoxed, he began to mumble incomprehensibly. “Boyfriend!...Boyfriend?....but I skipped my friends’ debate for this….I missed the debate!”

“Sorry?”

Suddenly he delved into his pocket and fished out his phone. He fumbled with it on the for a few seconds then put it to his ear, all the while mumbling under his breath. When someone picked up at the other end, he started off, “I’m coming for the semifinal, I’m just leaving guys….I’ll be there soon enough, don’t worry I’m rooting for you fellas….I’m coming. ” When he finally stopped talking, the person at the other end told him that we hadn’t made it past it the quarters. On hearing this he sat down slowly and held his head between his hands. For the next few minutes, he just kept shaking his head from side to side, completely ignoring the girl's concerned banter. After a while, he resigned himself to spending the afternoon with the girl of his dreams, and her boyfriend.

Ahh, poor Suddu, how could he have known. She had looked single enough on Facebook and we had seemed like such a strong team.

Teams from our college consecutively made it to the quarters of two more tournaments right after this one, losing each time on a 3-2 split. The jinx was finally broken at IIT Delhi when our team (Shobhit, Pranay and myself) went all the way to the finals and finished second. The team then went international to the Malaysia Debate Open and reached the semis, losing, once again, on a 3-2 split. The same team will compete at the Asians Debate this May. This will very likely be this team’s last tournament as Shobhit and I are set to graduate soon.

Suddu, meanwhile, has established himself as an adjudicator of repute, ranking very high at the Malaysia Debate Open and being chosen to judge debates up till the semi final. He is also adjudicating at the Asians in May. He still hasn’t held a girl’s hand.